S4E127 Why y'all are full of despair

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Speaker 2 (0s): Good morning bows and bow ties. So look, I don't know how long this video is gonna be. Maybe only a handful of minutes. Maybe I'll go 10, but I'm just gonna speak off the cuff here. I should have repaired better. but I, see so many people, or sometimes you'll hear online, so many people seem to be full of despair. And I'm telling you right now, most of you're gonna click outta this video, and I'm okay with it because it's my channel.

but I don't want you guys to listen for a second. I mean, we all go through trials and tribulations, right? but I see so many people full of despair. you know, I feel like whenever I run into people who seem to be so full of despair, so low, so hopeless, just so unhappy, and I see a lot of that.

And this is just my opinion based off of my collection of experiences, right? So usually what I have found is they have no relationship with God. Now, this is where most of you're gonna click out of this video, but I want you to listen for a second. Most of the people that I have seen Who seem to wanna check out, or whether it's online or whatever, right?

Like people are so hopeless and so full of despair, they have no relationship. You wanna know what else I've learned they have no relationship with, with God. I remember, I remember when my kids were going to a particular school, they used to go to Riverdale Baptist a long time ago. And I was telling this one teacher about how I said, lately I'm running into people from work And.

they were all people who did not believe in God. And I said, they were so angry, I mean, flat out angry. And I recall this one interaction with an individual who I was sitting at my desk and he sat one in front of me and one over. And this man turned around and borderline cussed me out like it was unsolicited, okay?

He turned around and said to me, I don't know why you're so stupid enough to believe in God or something, something to that effect. And he knew I believed in God. 'cause I was praying over my lunch or something, I don't even remember what it was, but he proceeded to go off. And when he went off, I don't know why I didn't stop him, I just let 'em go. I let 'em go. So I was telling them, I said, I was when I was at school, at the school at the time, before, you know, outta the school.

But they said this, this teacher said, you're going to be in the season where you may encounter that sort of thing. And I encountered several people who were incredibly angry about God. There's only one individual in my life that I met who was a complete atheist, who was not angry, which I thought was interesting.

He was, and he had a lot to be angry about. That's the thing. So that let me know, well, maybe he's not truly an atheist. And after digging, he, he actually said, I may be agnostic, I'm not sure, but right now, I think I'm atheist. But he, he was not sure of where he stood. And he had experienced some significant trauma in his life. So where am I going with this?

The people that I have met who seem to be very depressed and full of despair, did not have a relationship with God. And I know many of the people that I met that were atheists were, in my opinion, very angry. And I remember asking one person, why are you angry with me for my beliefs? You can believe whatever you want, but it's making you incredibly angry of what I believe for me.

And this man could not answer the question. I hope that you guys, I don't even know if this video is having issues or not, because I know I go through some of these weird spots where my signal is, you know, spotty. but I thought it was really interesting that when I made that comment to this man, he had no rebuttal. And I kept asking, why are you so angry?

And why are you angry with me? Why are you angry with me? He had nothing. I don't know what that means. I will profess that I did not have the, I would say, spiritual maturity. Maybe I still don't, to really understand why he was still angry. And especially with me.

I will say, when I look at the canal, I'm, I'm gonna make a segue here. I'm gonna segue here. So I don't want you guys to think I'm totally just, you know, random, but I kind of am. But this is, check this out. I want you to listen to what I'm gonna say. And maybe it's a stretch, maybe it's not. These are my opinions. They're all the way, my opinions. When I look at the black community and I look at the anger that is happening between the men and women, the anger with, with the black men and how they perceive women, anger with how they perceive the world, the the anger in their politics, and why they're in love with Trump.

I look at the anger with black women and black men. I look at the anger in the music, the oversexualization. I look at so many things. I look at how people, young men, can take the life of another man and feel nothing. And I look around and I see we are so far removed from the church. We don't have a basis for our structural basis, right?

We don't have a moral foundation. So we don't have anything that helps mature our ethics, right? Like we don't have a moral foundation. We don't have anything that we are trying to scratch on the tar in terms of being a better woman, a better man, right? We are so lost and so confused because we don't have Jesus. We don't have Jesus. So many people have tried to convince me that Christianity is a white man's religion.

And I'm like, you sound so ridiculous. Number one, Christ originated in the far East. you know, Christianity was in the northern portion of Africa and the Middle East, stuff like that. Look, look at, look at the map. It originated there. Christ was a brown man. Christ is here for everybody.

He's here for the Jew and the Gentile. He's here for the sick and the well, the, the, the, the, the pedophile. Those who are in the alphabet community, he's here for everybody. I look at the community and everyone's just so angry and hopeless and practice learn to helplessness a lot. Everyone, and when I say everyone, of course, not everyone but I don't feel like doing a whole lot of qualifiers today.

I look at America, there's a lot of people who are angry. You have men who are taking assault rifles and taking out large groups of students. You have people going to these west out weirdo rallies. And regardless of what you say and what evidence you present, they refuse to believe anything else. And they'll claim it to them in the name of Christianity too. but I just feel like people don't have a real relationship.

I'm just, I don't know. But some of the most anger, and it's not to say that if you believe in Jesus Christ, that you, you don't experience despair and anger in these types of things. Last year was a really hard year for me. I didn't talk about it much, but last year was really, really hard for me. And for those of you who know me, you know, you know why last year was, it was really tough for me, right?

but I also say, we get to choose how we wanna show up in this world too. Everyone gets to choose how you wanna show up in this world. There's so much more I want to say on that comment that just made, but I feel like if I speak too much, I will expose who, what I'm thinking about. For those of you who know, you know, but I will say this, there are people who claim to have a relationship with God too. And it doesn't show, they're always depressed.

They're always angry, like, there's no change. And I'm like, your real joy does not come from you. It comes from him. But let me, let me go back to my main point. I wanted to circle back to what I said earlier. I have found in my experience, most of the people who have been full of despair and who are hopeless had no relationship with God. And I have also found in my experiences, everyone who has claimed to be an atheist has been incredibly angry and angry towards me.

I'll never forget the guy who turned around unsolicited on my job and told me off on, why is it that I'm stupid enough to believe in this God and all this sort stuff. I mean, he just went off. And I don't know why I didn't see anything. but I said nothing. I just let him go off. And I just kept staring at him. I'm like, this is not even about me at this point. This is something else. Because no one pops off and says something like that. This was probably 10, 15, maybe 15 years ago.

I have never forgotten that. I don't know why that has been imprinted in my memory. I have never forgotten that. But every person I've met, minus one, every single atheist has always been angry in my experience. And every single person who has now that did not have a relationship with God who said they just didn't believe with God or whatever, And, they didn't know, maybe they were agnostic. I've always seen them be full of despair, a sadness and hopelessness.

That's my opinion. Every time I turn around, when somebody seems to struggle with, with happiness and all these other things, they're like, I don't believe in God. And I'm like, look at the pattern. How do you wake up every day and have no obvious reason to be happy or to live for? And let me just say for the record, it's not that people don't go through trials and tribulations.

'cause last year was really, really tough for me. It was really tough for me. Okay? But when I see people willing to check out and they're always negative, that lets me know a lot am always concerned. When I see people who are constantly in that space, I'm like, you clearly don't have any sort of connection with something else.

You don't. I look at the community that I'm a part of, and it seems to be the same way. And you have men who don't even care if they take the life of another men and another men in the community. I look at the anger in the music and all these other things, and a lot of it stems to a lot of the people who look like me. A lot of the men don't believe in God and Christianity, And, they have a warped sense of what the history is. It's like revisionist history.

They say these silly things like, you're listening, you're, you're believing a white man's religion. I'm like, you don't even know your history. You don't even know what you're saying right now. You don't even know where it originate from, where Richard's from. You don't know where the people originated from. You don't know. They say all these silly things like that. Bible's been re translated. I'm like, the Bible has been translated from Greek. Greek was the common language.

And because God said he was for everybody, they took the original manuscripts. I think there's like 5,300 of them, but you can find throughout the world. And he made sure from Greek, they translated it into different languages So that Christianity can be for everybody. They talk about, you believe in white Jesus. I'm like, I believe in Jesus. And actually the image that comes to my mind, which probably shouldn't be, but I always think of a man who's a dark skinned man with these round glasses, with salt and pepper hair.

And he's like bald in the middle. I don't know why. That's the image that comes to my mind. Look, can I have my own mind? Can I have my own mind? But I'm like, they, they say some of the most ridiculous things, And, they just make up stuff. And I'm like, well, what do you believe in? Who do you answer to? Because everybody answers to someone. Everybody obeys some form of authority. What do you believe in?

I'm like, how do you wake up every day if you don't believe there's no God there was a sentient being or, or a spirit or something that created you, your right mind? Because that rock did not wake up, right? It never went to sleep. It never anything. It just existed. I listen to people say some of the most ridiculous things. And sometimes I don't have the energy to engage.

I don't have the energy. I don't think I have the spiritual maturity, to be honest. 'cause I probably would say something like, shut up. Shut up. you know, like, but I, I sit there and I look at so many people, I'm like, you're so full of despair. You are hopeless. And it doesn't have to be like that. I, so many people are chasing the wrong things. And it's so funny. It's like the older I've gotten, the less flashier I become. I mean, I don't know.

I don't even find value in some of these things anymore. As I, it's hard to explain without deep diving in this car, while I drive to work about some of the things I've heard and some of the things I've seen. And it just, it just hits differently. It hits differently. And I see some of these people walking around and I'm like, the level, I don't know if the word is pity.

I'm feeling, I don't know how to name it. I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't know what to say. But it's hitting differently. And I don't know how to convey what it is that I was trying to say through this video, but it's hitting differently. I watch people walk through this life and I'm like, oh my goodness, I don't have all the answers. but I know what it's like to go through something and still find a way to find joy.

you know, I know what it's like to hurt bad, but I also know what it's like to wake up and be thankful. And when I see people go through these things and don't want to be accountable for their own anger and despair and how they wanna show up in this world, it lets me know their relationship is, or their lack thereof.

I don't know. I, what I will say is this, people who don't have a relationship with God, I have seen this over and over again. They hopeless, they full despair. Especially people who are like, I'm an atheist. I'm like, And. they want you to know that they're atheist and they're so angry. And I've always asked, why are you angry with me? Because you have the free will to believe or not believe in whatever you want.

So why are you angry with me? Why? And I've never gotten an answer. Never. I see, am I looking in this community, all these people out here talking, but I don't believe in God. I'm like, it shows you're not happy. Look at what you're chasing. You're chasing the proverbial golden cast. You're, you're, you're chasing something that's not fulfilling. You. Y'all have seen me do videos on like, Beyonce.

I don't know if she, what her relationship is with God. It doesn't appear to be one that's healthy. She, to me, she looks like she's full of despair, even though I do like some of her older music, but some of her music stuff is just a lie. I don't know what's going on there. I I can't deal with it. Anyway, I know this was a, a, a random video, but it was something that was sitting on me without going into a whole lot of detail. I, I try not to keep my, I I, I don't like my videos to be too heavy because we got enough heaviness in this world.

but I will say, when, you know, you know, if you look around and the people who are always upset, angry, negative, or someone who claims to be an atheist and And, they, they're angry about it. Just look at how they're moving. Look at life. I don't care if they're wealthy. Look at what they're chasing. Look, just look, if you observe, I see a lot of the same things. It's kinda like having new eyes.

And I'm sitting here because it's like, I don't know how to name what it is I'm seeing. Or maybe I am naming it correctly. I don't know how to explain it. But I'm telling you people who don't have that connection, I'm like, it's the same. It, it's, there's an inness there. It's hard to explain. I don't know how to name it yet, but as I figure it out, I'll have a much better conversation. But I'm telling you, watch and look, everybody's collection of experiences are different. I just, I'm just speaking from what I have observed.

I mean, 'cause anybody can say I'm happy. And then you observe and you listen to how they're speaking. Now, there are some people who will present a certain way, and that's fine too. I'm just giving you my opinion based on my observation. Mine. Okay. And no, I know all people are not going to present the same. but I know what I have seen. And I don't know. I mean, like, usually I'm not at a loss for words, but yeah, I've seen that.

I've seen it. There's like a darkness or something I've seen. I just know what I've seen. So, all right, I'm gonna get off now because I don't wanna ramble too much and maybe I will speak with clarity at another time. I haven't been on in a while. I have video ideas, but I just haven't recorded because I just haven't, I've been just enjoying the quietness of my, my ride to work or whatever, or listening to something and just needed that.

But let me know what your thoughts are. If there's something you guys want me to talk about, I may or may not talk about it. So I got.

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