S5E40 Side-Eye, Not Shouting: My Karen Energy

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Speaker 1 (0s): Good morning bows and bow eyes. It's been a minute, it's 7:19 AM and I got up, got myself together. Teeth are clean, you know, I'm appropriately dressed, but I have on my robe because it makes me feel good. It brings me comfort. I haven't done one in a rob in a while. Like one of these videos, I have my other one upstairs that my husband hates. It's, it's like fleece and it's got clouds, different color clouds on it.

It's probably the most unattractive robe you will ever see or wear. And I love her, but I got this from Costco and it feels so good. It's so soft. I just love it. So if you can get, go up. I have my coffee here. Hold on. I'm just out the way. Yeah, I would stand up, but you know, I don't want to, all right, so actually I can, alright, look at my room.

Isn't she cute? I got it last year. All right. Not enough of that. So why am I down here? You saw the title. I'm the, like the peaceful Karen and I observe chaos and I'm not yelling. I'm a quiet Karen. I think I'm a, I'm a Karen. Yesterday I wore a t-shirt that said, hello, my name is Karen, can I please speak to customer service or something like that. I got it off of YouTube and I wore it outside and my daughter was like, she was mortified.

Anyway, so y'all know in previous videos, like maybe years ago, I always had some of these sleeping issues and I've gotten better with my sleeping, but I tend to like to do a lot of peaceful things. So if you wanna know what I'm gonna do while I'm yammering, I have tons of books here. Some are coloring books. Some one of them is a logic puzzle book. It's a large print logic puzzle. I'm actually helping my daughter do something for Girl Scouts on something like this. But in fact, this one for a long time.

And I think what I'm gonna do is color. I think I'm gonna color out of this book. Shameless plug. This is a coloring book that I created for myself. It's on Amazon. I probably should advertise it. I haven't, but yeah, I think I'm gonna color maybe outta here. I dunno. Maybe I'll rip a page out and color because, and I'll tell you the reason why I do these things before I get into me being the quiet Karen, and I know this is a long intro.

I do these things because it allows for me to quiet my mind a little bit. I like quieting my mind a little bit because oftentimes it's just so much noise, which is why I'm gonna talk about me being a Karen. I look at my earrings, my earrings are popping a lock and eh, got this from late on vacation. Yeah, I like to, I need some new marker. These have seen, they're in our last slide.

Yes, I'm packy. I keep them in a little, but these, these have seen better days. Let me go to five and below or maybe where from Amazon or if I have to go to Walmart. Mm. But all right, so let's get on into it. Most of you know a Karen as someone who is like yelling and demanding to see customer service. I am not that kind of Karen. I am the observant, kind of almost shady Karen.

I am. And a lot of times I'll get like that when I feel like my peace, everybody's talking about their peace, right? But I'm serious about my peace. When my peace is disturbed or altered in any sort of way that catches my attention. And that's what most people think about when they think of some sort of caring. Somebody's yelling at someone and like the injustice of it all. And let me speak to the manager.

Well, I'm, I'm not that person. I mean, I can be, but I don't typically go there, right? I'm more for resolution first, but I'm more the Karen. It's like I have that same righteous indignation about things, but usually instead of like, I cannot believe this, I'm gonna the customer service, I'm not that, I'm more like, I give you the look. And for those who are observant, they, they, they get it, they get it.

They're aware. They're like, Ooh, I'm just like, I know my face is judgy. I know it. But look, I, I think I've earned it. I think I've earned the right to have a judgy face. Okay? I'm not that like progressed in my walk with God, where I don't always judge why is my hair doing this? Like what is up with the little, I I'm, I'm, I am I, I think I have a very judgy face I times and I try to contain it.

And it's not always containable. And this is the part of the reason why. Well, I turned 49 in summer and the older I get, I just feel like I have more clarity. And I know you're like, get to the point. Get to the point. I'm gonna get there when I get there. Okay? I'm telling the reason why it's taken a long time to set this up. And it's not even that big of a deal because I'm in a very peaceful kind of state this morning before I have to wake my daughter up in about maybe 40 minutes to get ready for her activities today.

My son and all, actually all my kids have sports today. Day. Yeah. I, I, I, my, my peace, everybody's talking about their peace. But I am quite particular about my peace. I say this because I used to have some dealings with anxiety and I didn't know it was that. Now, maybe a year or two ago, I did a video on black people and anxiety and silly me, silly me to think that I, I didn't feel like I got anxiety.

I was like, Jesus, I have got, but I was dealing with anxiety. I was dealing with like heart palpitations. I thought I was having heart attacks. And I was like, and I didn't realize how much I was carrying some of it I was taking on on my own and didn't realize I was doing it. Nobody was putting that on me. I was putting things on me. And once I started recognizing things and then I was like, okay, no, I'm not on medication or anything like that, but it was getting to the point that it was getting serious. And so I made conscious decisions to do things differently and now I need to get back in shape.

So anyway, I wrote down a couple of points to myself. I am not like your typical Karen. I definitely have or give Karen energy. So I do notice the injustice of it all. I do notice when things are like out of balance, right? And I tend to be a side eyeing quiet kind of Karen. I think the biggest thing is when I feel like standards are not being met, or at least my standards, that's when I start to have this caring energy right?

Now. Why am I even having this discussion? Because you just heard me mention that I have to get my kids up for their sports stuff going on. I know my daughter, I think is the first one I gotta get up. They're all sleeping soundly. We've got practice and games and all kinds of stuff today. And it made me think about when parents bring their kids to games and practices and stuff like that.

Now, let me just say this, the teams that my kids are on are usually pretty good at most of the time. It's usually not the, the, the parents of of, you know, my kids' teammates or anything like that. It's usually when we're at other things. And you have other parents who are there with their kids. And this is the thing, and I'm not saying it's not our, our teammates too, but this is the thing.

I'm one of those parents where if I'm on the sideline or if I'm at practice, that's what I'm there for. It drives me bongers when people bring their children and they have no concept of what's going on with their children. Now, before you guys call me the mean old lady, let me say this. I think children should be running and laughing and joking.

You know what I mean? Like, I actually enjoy the sound of children. What I don't enjoy is the sound of children screeching. You don't have to screech, get your child under control. What I don't enjoy is when you have kids who are running around and it's not safe. So like for example, if you're outside doing something, kids should be running.

But I feel like you are the parent. You need to watch out for them in the event that there is something unsafe that could be happening. Lay eyes on your kids. Now, where does my caring energy come in? Like if I were to see something, and it's rare, like if I think that the child is gonna be really put in harm's way, of course the mom in me, the human in me, the Christian in me is gonna make sure that this char this, this child is out of harm's way.

But let me tell you what I'm not gonna do. I'm not going outta my way to watch a child. That's where I'm at with it. It has to be a watching opportunity. Meaning if it's a convenient situation and I see it, then I'll look out for you. Now, most times I don't have to, but let's be clear, don't expect me to either. Now, if you ask me, I don't have a problem. If you say, Hey, I have to go over there and pluck my eyelashes for three seconds.

Can you watch little Johnny or something? Absolutely. I'm not heartless, but I hope you don't expect me to be watching your child on a regular, I hope you don't expect me to watch your child. Like they like, there's this expectation like, oh, while I run my mouth, somebody will watch my child. No ma'am. I raised mine. Or I'm continuing to raise mine. I don't have little babies. The youngest of my four children are my twins and they're 13.

So this leads me to my next point. I, I might have issues with seeing baby bags and strollers and stuff like that. You let me tell you the reason why. But I see people out here in these streets with these strollers and BB bags. It just turns me off. I mean like, we need to replace the population, right? We need population growth. But I'm like, let's be clear. I am so done with that. I remember I was sitting on the sidelines one time and I was talking with some other parents, and actually it was even at a practice about a week or two ago.

And I was talking with a couple of parents and those of us who are in our forties, I'm in my late forties, 49 to be exact. I was like, the thought of packing a stroller, the thought of having a car seat or a booster seat, or a mother loving baby bag in my car. Oh my gosh. And they started laughing.

'cause some of 'em were like, I know, we're like, we're out of that phase. And now for a lot of you whacked out weirdos out there who are like, see this is just another woman who's, who's a this or that. I'm like, no, no, no, no, no. What you're seeing, what you're observing is a bunch of this is kind of like in general, this is not all women in general. This is what middle age looks like. Because you've come through that phase and now you're in the breathing phase.

I've got one in college, one in high school, and I've got two in eighth grade, right? And what you're seeing is the coming of age, what you're seeing is light at the end of the tunnel. What you're seeing is a different type of freedom. My daughter's gonna come down here maybe in a half hour or so, or when I go wake her up because I took devices from my kids, by the way. But that's a whole other issue. But what you're seeing is people who have gone through this, right?

What you're seeing is when you have light at the end of the tunnel, right? What you're seeing is women who are like, wait a second, I've been there. I've run around chased after kids, changed diapers, had to get a baby bag full of the extra change of clothes and the wipes and the snacks and the drinks and the extra toy or car or little baby doll or whatever, I don't know, drink it or something. Because kids like to hold things in.

Boys like to put things in their pockets. And you know, all the things that kids will be entertained by. You've seen that. You've seen, I'm sorry, this is what the, the, the middle aged woman now gets to just go sit. The only time you're gonna see a middle aged kinda woman be that involved generally speaking is if it's now like a grandchild and you love your grandchild, but even then they're like, look, come get your child. Right? But right now, I have one in college, I have one in high school, and I have my twins that are in middle school.

I literally just have to say, Hey, make sure you pass. Sometimes I don't have to do that. They know to come down here, rinse out their gigantic water bottle, whichever one they have, they rent those things out, they pack, like fill it up. I'm like, what do you want from me? You know, you get thirsty, right? I'm just there to transport at this point because they can't transport themselves yet. I am not there on these sidelines to watch after the children.

I am not, I'm not going to, I'm not actively going to, if it's a, watching the children of opportunity movement because they happen to be right in front of me. Absolutely. I am not heartless. And I know this is gonna sound like crazy when I say this. I actually like kids. But right now I'm in this space where I don't wanna be bothered with yours. I don't. Kids are funny. They are, you know. But right now, after raising my four love my four to death, I'm, I'm good.

So that quiet energy, like that quiet caring energy comes when I'm just kind of like, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait. Don't come over here interrupting my peace. Don't ask me to watch your kids. I don't wanna hear all that hot hollering and crying. Take them kids over there, teach them that. You know what, yes, you can run around, but you don't have to like yell with wild abandon. You don't have to be ridiculous, right? Like back in the day when I was growing up, I wouldn't just be allowed to just get off like that.

And my kids knew. Let me tell you, people will tell you. My kids knew when they were doing too much. I would just be like, there's a little nod. And to this day, like if they're doing too much, I'm like, I don't do a whole lot. I'm not trying to do a whole lot quiet, Karen. Now it doesn't mean that I haven't set it off. I have my set it off moments. Trust me, my kids will let you know. But I'm like, it is not my job to watch your kids.

It is not my job to make sure that they're out of harm's way. It is not my job, not my job, not my job. I, I, I just feel like, no, it is not my job. So when, when I'm going to the sporting events or whatever it is, I want to be able to go as a parent of a particular age and just watch or enjoy or whatever. It is not my job to make sure that your child is, is entertained or safe or well fed or whatever.

If it's convenient, yes, but at the end of the day, I'm not doing it. Get your kid, get your kids. Now, like I said, I know a lot of people are gonna find a way to turn this into a she hates kids moment. No, I don't. I just don't wanna deal with yours. That's where I'm at with it. I don't want to deal with your mother loving kids. I don't. I'm in a space where now I can just show up and marinate that and that's what I plan on doing.

The marination of it all. Let me see. Did I write something down? Oh, I wrote down this note that basically to be the kind of quiet Karen that I am, it basically requires you to have like a high awareness of things. What else did I write? But you're still kind of like slightly bothered by it all. You're just not going out like calling the police or going to the customer service. It doesn't mean I won't, right? But that's not like how I typically get down.

But once you take me there, you know, this mouth is slick. Let me tell you something. This mouth is slick. It can be treacherous, which is why I don't go there. I want to keep my peace. You know what? I've only colored one thing. Oops. Can you guys see this? It took a lot. Lemme tell you the reason why. 'cause I don't have the, my good markers. So I'm coloring with these really thin, these thin sharpies. 'cause my, all my other, my markers and such are just dead.

Now I'm, I gotta buy some more today. So I'm using these fine like sharpies and I'm gonna start with this green one. I know the, the thing that I colored was so simple. I do like large print coloring sometimes I'm not really big into tons of mandalas. I know there's a total sidebar. Actually, this is one of my old ones I created. This is the thing. Sometimes I get tired of, oh, this is cute. Like, that's kind of cute, right? I think I'm gonna come out with some more. Maybe I'll do that one next. But you could tired of looking at mandalas, but you wanna do, oh, if you wanna know where that is, maybe I'll link this.

Mandolins and Mammals a coloring book for adult creatives. I like to entertain myself. Look, can I have this moment, please? Anyway, where I'm going with this, where was I going with this? I forgot what my train of thought was. Oh, I'm not big into like contacting like the police or anything like that. But I do like my peace. And as long as you're not disrupting my piece, I'm good. I'm good.

Let me tell you another reason why I was thinking about this. What was I gonna say? Devices, my quiet, caring energy will kick in when I am out someplace. And let's say somebody's trying to have a conversation with you, but their kid has their devices on and you can't hear over the loud singing or adventurous moment in the movie where the pirate or whatever it is, I need to do something with my hair before I leave out.

Or the, the pirate or someone comes and, and they're causing mayhem, right? And is so freaking loud and I feel like I have to scream and I'm like, wait a second. Or what if we're all just sitting quietly? Whatever happened to etiquette? Most people will put an ear button if they're on a phone, but when they have their kids, they don't put headsets on them kids. I don't understand why they can't look the injustice of it all.

Remember I told you, quiet Karen energy, why can't you put a freaking headset on these kids? I don't care to hear about what bluey or what, whatever, whatever the thing is or whatever video you got going on is is like, I'm like, this is the kind of stuff that drives me crazy. Now. I don't go off, I just side eye people. I do. That's just where I'm at in my, my, my semi Karen, my quiet Karen era.

That's where I'm at with it. I'm a quiet Karen. I'm not allowed Karen. However I can be if necessary. But you, you, you're not gonna see me pop off and be loud, Karen, but I am a shady one. I will look at you sideways and make you feel uncomfortable. I sure will. I'll be like, I mean, it's my right.

You wanna be loud? I can look how I want. It's my face. God gave it to me. Isn't this a cute face? I love my face at 49. I'm like, I look good. I don't have a whole lot of gray hair. But look, you can see my, i I die. You can see my color coming back in my regular little black hair. I need to update my dye job. But like, look, I'm trying to hold on, hold it on. But the reason, anyway, so I'm out here on YouTube right now videoing primarily because I knew I was gonna get up and start coloring.

I like the fact that it's my quiet peace. And when I was thinking about my activities for the day, I know that my peace will be disrupted because I'm gonna be on the sidelines or whatever. You know what I mean? I think the first thing this morning, I'll be able to, maybe I'll get some walking in and I'll just walk away from people I don't know. But I, I just know that when I'm out and about, there will be people who will try to disrupt my peace.

I'm like, get your kids. Like I said, kids should be allowed to run and everything, but I don't think they should run with wild abandoned. I think they should play and talk, but they don't have to screech. I don't care if you put them on devices. I just don't want to hear what's going on. And I'm just kinda like, why can't you get them under control? That's why I'm saying this whole kid's thing, I'm getting old. It has turned me into a can. I know I'm a, I know I'm a Karen.

I need to change the title of this. I'm gonna change the title of this video when I'm done with this and make a, make a thumbnail so that it makes sense. Because I should probably change it to something like the quiet Karen, not the peaceful queer Karen, but the quiet Karen, because it's, I, I mean, I kind of am peaceful, but it's more like I'm quiet about how in my mind I am judging you. I am, I am, I am judging.

So anyway, I made it a point to come down here this morning and to engage in a very peaceful, quiet activity. It centers me. And what I really should have done is I should have actually engaged in some sort of prayer. I don't do a good job. I've been doing that enough. I should have read the Bible or something like that. I'm just not doing a good job these days. But I do try to really just enjoy the silence a lot.

And it's been getting worse as I've gotten older. Just for full transparency, I am a contractor, but I do work in government spaces. And so because of that, I am affected by the government shutdown. So I've been home and like outside of running all the errands and taking care of all the appointments and everything so that my husband doesn't have to worry about it. I've been sitting at home in absolute silence all day, and it has been glorious.

I love it so much. I don't turn on anything. I sit in silence. I take care of whatever I need to take care of. I gotta start reading this one book for this book club. We've got coming up at my kid's school. I should go get it. I'm curious to see what you guys guys think about. Hold on a second. Okay, I'm back. I'm back. I'm back. All right, so this is the book.

This is total sidebar. I know this is yammering. Yeah, take this off. They gave it to my son. They want me. We're gonna be reading this. Raising Good Humans. Can you see that? If you guys have read this book, let me know. I need to get started on that. My peaceful activity. Maybe after I do a little walk I'll start reading this while, you know, my daughter is practicing, I don't know, before one of her games or whatever. But yeah, I've been in, I've been trying to protect my peace.

And in one of the things that I've been doing is just enjoying the silence. I'm a quiet Karen, so when I'm out and about and your little unruly kids are doing what they do, I'm like, its like it, it disrupts my peace. And I just feel like, don't ask me to do anything for your kids unless they are in obvious harm and you cannot get there to mitigate any potential dangers.

It's not my job. I've, I've, I've raised my kids, I'm continuing to raise mine. You need to raise yours. If it's obvious that they are in harm's way, I will help out. But let's be clear as the quiet caring that I am, the injustice of it all. If you can't get your kids under control, if you can't put a headset on your kids, because now you're disrupting everybody else's piece. 'cause we gotta hear what video or cartoon they're watching. If you can't keep an eye on your child who's running around doing, I don't know what, because they're like Hogans or whatever, as kids should be running around and he should be like, kind of loud, but not screeching.

Now you're disrupting my peace. Don't expect me to do anything. Let me tell you something. As soon as I see somebody pushing a freaking stroller, I'm like, oh no. Oh no. That means you've got snacks and stuff in the bag. That means you gotta go feed your little munchkin, which is great. You should, but I don't, I don't wanna be around it. Let me tell you something else. People always expect, I shouldn't say people always expect, but like when you're at like practices or games or whatever, and they're like, can you do this? Can you watch the food kids? Because I do. You need to watch your kids.

You watch your kids look, all of us middle aged, like 40 somethings. We've done that. I remember when I had my four kids, I remember I used to have my oldest and then I had one. Hold on a second, lemme respond to this text, respond to this real quick. Let's, yes, let me tell you, I remember I had my, my oldest and then I had the next one, and then I had my twins.

They would be around me. Like we would be like it, but I knew exactly where all of my kids were. They understood that I would look at them. Okay, cool. I was just making sure. Okay. I, I had, I would make my kids knew when it got to be like chaotic. I'm like, make sure you're right here. You stay right here. Pay attention to mommy. You two hold hands, you two. Okay. I didn't put those responsibilities on anybody else.

I'm like, watch your kids. So now I'm sure somehow someone will turn this into Bo hates kids. No, I don't. I actually like kids, but right now I don't wanna watch yours. I just wanna be focused on mine. That's it. I am sitting here talking about how I'm quiet, Karen, but I'm looking at myself on camera and I realize I'm smiling and I think it's because I feel relaxed. I have my coffee, I got my Mr. Rogers like soft robe on.

I'm getting ready to change to some athletic clothing in a, in a moment here, you know, you know when you like wake up in the morning, your teeth feel clean after you've done the whole, so you need, I did all that. I got my copy. I'm over here coloring with freaking fine, fine tip sharpies because all of my markers are done and my kids always take my stuff. And then markers are, the caps aren't on. And next thing you know, I'm like, why is my SHIT like dried out?

I know, I know. Look, I'm trying to do better. Look, this is a family channel. This was a little bit of a yammer, a rant. I don't even know if I should even make this an active video to be honest. But this is literally how I get down. This is how I get down. I just like to be content and peaceful and you know, I I like knowing that, hey, I did the best I could and now it's my turn.

It's my turn to enjoy watching. As my kids get older, I rem oh, I remember when I had my kids, this is what I'm meant to say, but I had my kids and I was out and about. And I remember when my kids started doing sports, even though my oldest doesn't do sports, a parent told me when I was in, like my, by the time my kids were eligible for sports and stuff, they were really, I was like in my early thirties, they said, your, my youngest is as old as your oldest, right?

'cause I kept thinking, boy, these parents seem so old, right? Well, duh. They had kids that were older. And so now this like, is that that last batch, that last crop coming through. And so they've seen it all have done it all. And I remember two different scenarios. But one parent said, my youngest is as old as your oldest. And one day you are going to be where I am now, and you're going to actually enjoy it there. And, and she was like, you'll be able to appreciate.

And, and I realized I am now appreciating, even though it's exhausting going to the practices, going to the games, I just focus on myself. Or sometimes if my husband and I, we don't have to like divide and conquer. We can actually go together, but we have too many kids, so we have to constantly go to different games and stuff. But she said, you'll be able to appreciate it. You, you'll enjoy it differently. And number two, it's kind of nice when you get to be one of the matriarchs on the team.

And that's me because now I'm like, I'm, I'm not like when there's like silly things going on and people are losing it. I remember when there were parents talking about what their kids were getting or whatever, and I made the comment and one other parent got it. I made the comment. I'm like, I don't know why my kid should feel that they should be getting all these extra allowances anyway. They're allowed to stay in my house. They're allowed to eat the food that I provide for them and all this other stuff. I'm like, I have too many kids to sit there to think like everybody should be entitled to everything.

And one other parents was, 'cause she was saying, that's the point. These kids get too much. And all these other parents were looking like this was a novel idea that I said this. And we were like, oh. I was just like, no. Sometimes the answer is no. Let me tell you, I came on here. I don't, I must be on one today. I, I saw this from like a year or two ago. I have this spinning ring. I'm not sure if you guys can see this.

I got this off of TikTok. Can you see that? It spins. I think my fingers are just too big. So for you to see if you're playing with it, there's gears in here. Can, let me see if you can see this. Oh, my fingers turned away. So you probably can't, can you see that? It's hard to see from this angle and the lights, but there's gears that are, can you see that? Yeah. Anyway, I brought out my spinning ring.

I got my color books. I got a book if I want to read something. I don't know. Anyway, I just wanted to get out here and just have a simple conversation. This is not gonna go anywhere. I'm sure people are like, why did, did she get on here Yammer? Because I can is my channel look out. But I am definitely a quiet Karen, get your kids. Don't expect me to watch your kids. When I see people coming with strollers and stuff, I'm like, Nope. I'm like, get your kids.

Don't expect me to watch them. It's not my job. Not going to watch your kids. I don't even feel bad about it. And I think people, especially those who don't look like me, I think they, I don't know if they're scaring me, but I think they know. Don't ask her for anything. They go to the people who look like them. And as far as I'm concerned, I'm content with it. I'm like, I'm not watching your kids. I don't know if they think I'm gonna do something awful. I dunno. I mean, 'cause I don't harm kids, but I just feel like these aren't my kids.

They're your kids. Watch your kids. That's it. So, all right, what time is it? It's 7 55. I'm gonna finish this cup of coffee. I'm gonna finish working on this one little piece here. That with my fine tip, sharpie, since I don't, I have a whole bunch of sharpies, but I don't have any markers or most of these are dried out because my kids are ridiculous.

And I think that's pretty much it. Well, let me see, what else did I say? Oh, I wrote down a couple of points that I didn't even, I went off script. Basically what I wanted to say is, before I get off, this is actually a good opportunity right now to go subscribe to my channel, send this to all your friends, send it to all your friends, all your, all your aunties, your cousins, your sisters share. So share it. Leave a comment. Let me tell you because I'm amazing in every way and could practically do no wrong.

But yeah, this is a good opportunity if you like what you're hearing. Even though this, the energy on this I know is really low, but that's how I'm feeling right now. This will be a good time to subscribe to the channel. What else did I wanna say? Oh, I basically wrote down that as a quiet Karen, I notice a lot. I'm not trying to be mean. What I'm trying to do is just marinate in my peaceful moment. Like enjoy the moment. Being really intentional in the moment. So when you and your baby's kids or or or Jeff Rose's kids or whatever it is, come through and you can't get your life together, that is annoying to me.

It really is. I'm like, get your kids. Get your kids. I'm not watching your kids. Like when I see people pushing those strollers, I don't know what it is. I'm like, oh my gosh, that means they're bringing chaos. They're bringing chaos. There's gonna be a lot of crying and everything. And I'm not anti kids crying because that's what kids do. But I'm just kinda like, as long as you don't expect me to part, other moms do feel that way too. I've heard them talking. I'm like, yeah, as long as they don't think I need to. I don't care if you're a black or white. That seems to be universal.

I've seen moms be like, They'll help, but they're like, I'm so glad I'm outta that phase. What else am I saying? I think a lot of people who see women showing up with strollers and stuff are usually older people who really admire seeing that. And I do. Or people who want kids. But I can tell you, most of middle aged people I know we're literally like, oh, if they could see the thought bubble in my mind, I'm like, don't ask me for beep.

Honestly. I know I'm giving. Like I just want them over there. I like to observe the kids. I just don't wanna interact. Actually, I take that back. There's some kids that I do like to interact with because they're funny. But generally speaking, I don't wanna interact with your kid. I just don't. I just wanna go do what I wanna do. So anyway, what did I say at the end? Look, I got my transitions on. I'm like doing this. I should have. I should have gone to the script. I wrote.

What was I writing? I wrote, you could tell I'm home on today. I'm a kind Karen. Just not the kind who tries to get people arrested. Anyway, look, I need to get off of here. I need to get my kids up. I need to get my daughter up. It's 7 59. She's gonna have to take a quick shower and we gotta roll out. I might even be nice and make her water, her gigantic water. 'cause she's gonna need today. All right. I might be making another video in about 30 to 40 minutes as I'm walking because I must be on one today.

I didn't get much done today. That's it. I gotta find, I had a fine tip marker, but I'll work on some more later and if anybody has read this, let me know. Sorry, take that off. If anybody have read this, let me know. I need to get started on that. We're supposed to talk about that on November 4th. I just got the book yesterday, so let me go. I'm just have a good one.

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